IF I ONLY KNEW
© October 2022 -  The Depressed Poet, Doc Dalton

If I only knew why my mind would make me crazy day after day
If I only knew why sadness seemed to follow me through-out my life
If I only knew why my tomorrows hurt even more than my yesterdays
If I only knew why my pain from so very deep within, cuts like a knife

If I only knew why these rivers of tears fall from my eyes
If I only knew why when they no longer fall, I still cry deep down inside
If I only knew why my life would become so confusing and so dam strange
If I only knew why sadly, something's don't ever seem to change

If I only knew why when I reached out to you Jesus, it seems as if you are just not there
If I only knew why did you really feel my pain and torment, hey Jesus, did you care
If I only knew why how much longer I would need to hold on to this daily pain
If I only knew why sadly, something's don't ever seem to change

Now as I walk along this journey to a destination of who knows where
Confused by it all, with a soul that is torn, tattered and beyond repair
I screamed out your name and said Jesus, I can't do this all on my own
It was then that I heard a voice clearly say,
Don't worry my son, I'm here, right beside you, and you were never alone

If I only knew that you would never leave me and always be by my side
If I only knew that your love would grow greater in every tear I cried
If I only knew that your love dear Jesus would always and forever remain
If I only knew that now gladly, I could say, something's don't ever need to change